Day 5 – A photo of yourself two years ago.

8/29/2009

My handsome nephew Mark and Myself..

I seriously need to get back in shape.... I am sitting here with my computer in my lap and my rolls are everywhere... I need to get it under control. I wish I could find my motivation again. I am gaining and gaining. and I don't like it. boooo.

I took my test today for the post office.. It isn't being advertised anymore.. so maybe that is a good sign? I HOPE SO!!

I have been feeling a little down again the last few days.. I think it is a combo of not working out and talking about Rene(ex)to our mutual friend. He had seen him not too long ago.. and I couldn't help but ask how he was. My friend said he was good, quiet but seemed good. I was glad to hear it. Even though I am not happy with the decisions he has made, I will always care for him just like I will always care for Jordan. I don't want to see anything bad happen to either of them. I know the past is past, and eventually Rene will be where Jordan is now. A distant memory. 

So I seriously need to run tomorrow.. I think I am gonna do it outside though. And hit the gym at night and run a little there too. I feel like when I am outside I run longer because I can't just press the magic stop button and I can think a bit more clearly. We will see. Wish me luck!!! 

Friends are amazing. It makes me so thankful that I have them. and some really good ones at that. Alaina touched my heart today. She is such a kind hearted woman and such a blessing. My life wouldn't be the same without her. She doesn't have to do half the things she has done for me these past 13 years but she does. and I appreciate her so very much. Love you Alaina!

Well I am re-reading "Fallen" so I am gonna get started at that so I can start "Torment". Goodnight!